I actually dont know how to explain how, what, and when?!
how?
how can i react for what he reveals on me ......
what?
what should be my reaction on it?!
When?
when should i shout!!!?
I'll explain it more clearer to all of you ... Remember this guy who makes me smile?! damn his already committed!! and stupid thing i made I asked him that--- hnde ka ba single?! obviously naman na may gf siya.."FYI hs so proud that he has gf and 3 months in relationship... waa...
I didnt see it coming and im so stupid why i didnt ever asked him if his committed?!
and the good catch of the story I keep on advicing him about her gf...and I thought of myself that im gonna be jealous about it but suprisingly im not!!! so at least, revealing he has gf helps me to know if I'm falling from him or ..... IM ovewhelmed by his companion :) hehe..
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
progressing!!! LOL
Jan. 11, 2010
3:00pm
(Sunday)
Last night I cant stop myself to text her soo .. i texted her if she's still awake? ( oh guys please don't get me wrong if I used the word "She" its really she i was referring hehehe... Then I'm Expecting a text back from her... so I've waited and wait.wait.wait... and no text at all... But actually the impact isn't bad. Cause i'm actually talking to this ("guy" haha.. no joke its a guy!!). He makes me smile and totally forget her.. BUT I'm not really sure why I'm so at ease with him and sometimes I don't like to be with him and I dont wanna any communication at him. :(
hmmm.. i dont know if im starting to move on and liking someone else?!!
let see.. <3 id="gwProxy" type="hidden">
3:00pm
(Sunday)
Last night I cant stop myself to text her soo .. i texted her if she's still awake? ( oh guys please don't get me wrong if I used the word "She" its really she i was referring hehehe... Then I'm Expecting a text back from her... so I've waited and wait.wait.wait... and no text at all... But actually the impact isn't bad. Cause i'm actually talking to this ("guy" haha.. no joke its a guy!!). He makes me smile and totally forget her.. BUT I'm not really sure why I'm so at ease with him and sometimes I don't like to be with him and I dont wanna any communication at him. :(
hmmm.. i dont know if im starting to move on and liking someone else?!!
let see.. <3 id="gwProxy" type="hidden">
Friday, January 8, 2010
sneaky moment!!!
10:45 Am
@ the Office :p
"I was actually at my desk right now hehe.. sneaking on my working hours.. (sorry Boss!!) LOL
SUPER SNeaky to gingwa ko with a small window just to update my blog haha....and the good catch im opening my accounts in one window, with differents tabs- Facebook,bloggers,blogger,twitter,Multilpy and of course my Proxy email add.. haha.. Hmmm.. count to think of it my boss is not around so why should I obey them and all the employees is actually doing the same as i do!!! haha Joke lang nmn..(MGA PASAWAY)
While browsing my account on my facebook there is one thing that catch my attention on my facebook application "sabi ni Dr. Love" who the hell this "Dr. Love" anyway?! his the DOOOCTTORR Luuurve--- that gives advice to those who believe on him ....OF course who subscribe them the broken hearted or SUPER inlove and some of my friends are trying this sooo called Doctor LOOORVVEE!! haha.. then i decided why not!? to try this " so called dr. LURVE haha...and then: tadddaaaa!!!---
@ the Office :p
"I was actually at my desk right now hehe.. sneaking on my working hours.. (sorry Boss!!) LOL
SUPER SNeaky to gingwa ko with a small window just to update my blog haha....and the good catch im opening my accounts in one window, with differents tabs- Facebook,bloggers,blogger,twitter,Multilpy and of course my Proxy email add.. haha.. Hmmm.. count to think of it my boss is not around so why should I obey them and all the employees is actually doing the same as i do!!! haha Joke lang nmn..(MGA PASAWAY)
While browsing my account on my facebook there is one thing that catch my attention on my facebook application "sabi ni Dr. Love" who the hell this "Dr. Love" anyway?! his the DOOOCTTORR Luuurve--- that gives advice to those who believe on him ....OF course who subscribe them the broken hearted or SUPER inlove and some of my friends are trying this sooo called Doctor LOOORVVEE!! haha.. then i decided why not!? to try this " so called dr. LURVE haha...and then: tadddaaaa!!!---
Leah Mycah inalam ang masasabi ni Dr.Love
Inlove ka lang sa memories hinde sa tao kaya ka hnde ka mkapagmove-on!!!
hahaha..... wwaaa... could it possible that your totally inlove with the "memories" not on the person?! how come your going to feel the love if your not inlove with the special one?! hmmm quite wierd!! technically we fall inlove with someone not beacause of the so sweetness memories. People cant move on because your bringing back the memories together that should be left and remain as a history in your life- hehehehe.. so means PAST IS PAST !!!ITS OVER!!!
Hence,doesnt mean its a part of history you should forget the memoir!! You can still love the person even you broke up, even you already seaprate waaaayyysss but in different level reagrdless of how long your relationship last,it could years or days...In different way?!- it means that you can love him/her by caring with the person but expecting to love you back is a no no...
When we start to fall in love is one way package you also know how to accept the fact that things will fall out and BIG sh*t comes breaking your heart into pieces *smash smash** :/. But the story wont end on it!! youR still alive my dear!! ALIve and kicking!!! so what are waiting for?! continue your journey find love with in yourself cause its the first part of you is missing due to human shitness we forgot to give happiness for our OWNSELF!! :)
the next step. ........ACCEPTANCE!!
accept the fact that you are single and ready to mingle!!! just kidding hehe... ( this is actually goes to people who are afraid to be alone) dont rush things!! things will fall into places :). Sometimes when we rush things it falls into a disaster relationship again and again!!! So guys enjoy what you have, enjoy the companion of new people that comes to your life and even the old Friends... AND who knows?! one of them is the right person for you!!! and finally you can say to him/her *My KISMET* awww.. cheesy moments!!LOL
Accept !!Accept!!... Accept!!!
accept that you cant be friends "AGAIN" ........insantLy!!...as I've said dont rush things it will fall into their proper places...Learn to understand that both of you are in moving on stage wherein bitterness knocks ( knock knock knock...) and all you can remenber is -- sleepness night because you fight for little things, endless arguments then make up each other ..uwww.. mushy moments but still you didnt compromise with the issue or your ex partner is such a flirt and he/she just played on you!! too bad!!.. etc etc yadayada.. COME ON!!! in this case your still bitter!!!- in filipino vocabulary ISA ka AMPALAYA haha... LOL... but when you reach the part LAughung on all the sweet, loving ,corny,cuteness and struggling moments and with all the sleepless night and crying days!!---CONGRATULATION!!! you finally accept it!!! yipeee!!!! GOOD fo you!!!
and if she/he no good at all with the friendship thing leave it behind you have lots of friends to come!!! hellooooo to theeeemmmm!!!...its not your lost-their lost!! LOL...
then finally when someone accept you and gives you the special affection that you wanted alot!!dont try to ignore it try to be a part of it and enjoy every single seconds IT seems its the last day on earth :) but remember be neutral!! dont give your 100% of yourself .DONT RUSH THINGS too....But incase you cant control it... learn to stand up and start a new day!!!:) ACCEPT ... and give the biggest shot of your life..
People fails but when you want something the universe compirse us!!-paulo coelho :)
LOVE.FAILS.LOST.ACCEPT.HAPPINESS.LOVE.
--- haiztt... my sneaky time @ the office turns to this haha..
hahaha..... wwaaa... could it possible that your totally inlove with the "memories" not on the person?! how come your going to feel the love if your not inlove with the special one?! hmmm quite wierd!! technically we fall inlove with someone not beacause of the so sweetness memories. People cant move on because your bringing back the memories together that should be left and remain as a history in your life- hehehehe.. so means PAST IS PAST !!!ITS OVER!!!
Hence,doesnt mean its a part of history you should forget the memoir!! You can still love the person even you broke up, even you already seaprate waaaayyysss but in different level reagrdless of how long your relationship last,it could years or days...In different way?!- it means that you can love him/her by caring with the person but expecting to love you back is a no no...
When we start to fall in love is one way package you also know how to accept the fact that things will fall out and BIG sh*t comes breaking your heart into pieces *smash smash** :/. But the story wont end on it!! youR still alive my dear!! ALIve and kicking!!! so what are waiting for?! continue your journey find love with in yourself cause its the first part of you is missing due to human shitness we forgot to give happiness for our OWNSELF!! :)
the next step. ........ACCEPTANCE!!
accept the fact that you are single and ready to mingle!!! just kidding hehe... ( this is actually goes to people who are afraid to be alone) dont rush things!! things will fall into places :). Sometimes when we rush things it falls into a disaster relationship again and again!!! So guys enjoy what you have, enjoy the companion of new people that comes to your life and even the old Friends... AND who knows?! one of them is the right person for you!!! and finally you can say to him/her *My KISMET* awww.. cheesy moments!!LOL
Accept !!Accept!!... Accept!!!
accept that you cant be friends "AGAIN" ........insantLy!!...as I've said dont rush things it will fall into their proper places...Learn to understand that both of you are in moving on stage wherein bitterness knocks ( knock knock knock...) and all you can remenber is -- sleepness night because you fight for little things, endless arguments then make up each other ..uwww.. mushy moments but still you didnt compromise with the issue or your ex partner is such a flirt and he/she just played on you!! too bad!!.. etc etc yadayada.. COME ON!!! in this case your still bitter!!!- in filipino vocabulary ISA ka AMPALAYA haha... LOL... but when you reach the part LAughung on all the sweet, loving ,corny,cuteness and struggling moments and with all the sleepless night and crying days!!---CONGRATULATION!!! you finally accept it!!! yipeee!!!! GOOD fo you!!!
and if she/he no good at all with the friendship thing leave it behind you have lots of friends to come!!! hellooooo to theeeemmmm!!!...its not your lost-their lost!! LOL...
then finally when someone accept you and gives you the special affection that you wanted alot!!dont try to ignore it try to be a part of it and enjoy every single seconds IT seems its the last day on earth :) but remember be neutral!! dont give your 100% of yourself .DONT RUSH THINGS too....But incase you cant control it... learn to stand up and start a new day!!!:) ACCEPT ... and give the biggest shot of your life..
People fails but when you want something the universe compirse us!!-paulo coelho :)
LOVE.FAILS.LOST.ACCEPT.HAPPINESS.LOVE.
--- haiztt... my sneaky time @ the office turns to this haha..
Sunday, January 3, 2010
January 3, 2010
Its really sad that my favorite month is soo over.. I really love December lots of fun stuff is happening!! more parties,gigs, Drunken Parties and "tambay modes". and i got the chance to be a part of our Christmas party at office :) yipee yahee!! NO more Christmas lights and Christmas tree and Christmas Decor!! so sad!! I wish next month is december!! haha..Tomorrow ill be back to my normal life.. Back to Work! Back to my desk! ( RAR!!) though I miss my work place and my office mates and laughter to death and the best part of it!!! " ang walang katapusan pag MAMALDITA haha..) Specially the long table during lunch time thanks for MR. JEEtendra haha..Sorie dude!!
Atleast this day i feel good for me I read a blog from Paulo Coelho and its inspire me, i really love his novels and blog so guys check this out http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2010/01/03/the-good-fight-3/ this site is good!!!
I feel good today I got the chance to do my !st priority for this year .. my Sunday obligation!! :) and as i wish i want to see miracle, believe it or not i saw one!! its really miracle that i finally talk to a long lost friend, I mean not actually long lost , a little lost haha.. LOL i wish this will be consistent for us. Our Friendship!!
SO see yah next time for more journey and blog from ME!!!
CIAO!!!
Its really sad that my favorite month is soo over.. I really love December lots of fun stuff is happening!! more parties,gigs, Drunken Parties and "tambay modes". and i got the chance to be a part of our Christmas party at office :) yipee yahee!! NO more Christmas lights and Christmas tree and Christmas Decor!! so sad!! I wish next month is december!! haha..Tomorrow ill be back to my normal life.. Back to Work! Back to my desk! ( RAR!!) though I miss my work place and my office mates and laughter to death and the best part of it!!! " ang walang katapusan pag MAMALDITA haha..) Specially the long table during lunch time thanks for MR. JEEtendra haha..Sorie dude!!
Atleast this day i feel good for me I read a blog from Paulo Coelho and its inspire me, i really love his novels and blog so guys check this out http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2010/01/03/the-good-fight-3/ this site is good!!!
I feel good today I got the chance to do my !st priority for this year .. my Sunday obligation!! :) and as i wish i want to see miracle, believe it or not i saw one!! its really miracle that i finally talk to a long lost friend, I mean not actually long lost , a little lost haha.. LOL i wish this will be consistent for us. Our Friendship!!
SO see yah next time for more journey and blog from ME!!!
CIAO!!!
Saturday, January 2, 2010
I was reading a blog and this lines struck me!!
Forget the things that made you sad
Remember the things that made you glad
Forget the friends that proved untrue
Remember those who stuck by you
Forget the troubles that have passed your way
Remember the blessings and miracles every day
Remember the things that made you glad
Forget the friends that proved untrue
Remember those who stuck by you
Forget the troubles that have passed your way
Remember the blessings and miracles every day
Come to think of it why on earth... we keep ourselves misery.
and keeping so much importance for sad memories that is happening on us?! and leave behind the happy days of our life.....Failure may come to us but learn to stand on it!! why bother to recover someone who totally lost you in their lives there are lots of people who stayed for you whenever and whatever happen!? Tears may run down to your cheeks; and its a part of life... To cry means you're not a loser or giving up for something... its how you express the deeper side of your heart.REMEMBER staying here on earth is a blessing that we have the chance to make other people happy because we are here!!!ALIVE and share our happiness with them!!
To all my Family, love ones, friends... thanks for staying for me..and be apart of mamai's life!!
and keeping so much importance for sad memories that is happening on us?! and leave behind the happy days of our life.....Failure may come to us but learn to stand on it!! why bother to recover someone who totally lost you in their lives there are lots of people who stayed for you whenever and whatever happen!? Tears may run down to your cheeks; and its a part of life... To cry means you're not a loser or giving up for something... its how you express the deeper side of your heart.REMEMBER staying here on earth is a blessing that we have the chance to make other people happy because we are here!!!ALIVE and share our happiness with them!!
To all my Family, love ones, friends... thanks for staying for me..and be apart of mamai's life!!
All in my mind
11:10 pm-January 2,2010(saturday)
Still?! one thing that bothers me alot!! why im still looking for the missing one!? and i cant find it on him.. if i could only have it again..... again and again!!!! if only God allow me to have it one more time.. :( I could finally say the missing part is now found.
I cant sleep and I'm still browsing my facebook account .. hmmm.. how should I start my 1st blog?! actually i've got lot of things in my mind... but one thing that strike me most is that Im quite lost?! right now.Lost in a sense that I know im happy- but there is one thing is missing...I know myself much! when I say I'm happy,I'm happy..One reason that i'm happy is that i met a person who make me smile each moment and every second.I'm happy! when im talking to him, I'm happy with him, and whenever he texted me and calling me my pet name, it make me smile :) but? im afraid that this happiness won't last and be comfortable on how we treat each other and at the end he see me as a "friend" :(.... I should say im lost in air!!? hence, when he talks about his past relationships actually i dont feel any envy on it!! its a neutral feeling...
Still?! one thing that bothers me alot!! why im still looking for the missing one!? and i cant find it on him.. if i could only have it again..... again and again!!!! if only God allow me to have it one more time.. :( I could finally say the missing part is now found.
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